Truth

Well, its the truth... And you know very well it is..
So please take care of it... Not many would do this...
and not many would get this....

Love you,

away..

and even though the feeling's been gone i just wanna be here
to pick up the little pieces of remains
i'm going down the plane is smoking
and the only one who can save me is you but you wanna throw me away...

i know times were hard, but i'll try not to give up on you love <3

My 1st love letter

It was midnight as I walked home from a friend's house. The road was so empty that I wished I had someone to walk with me, especially her. I glanced up to the sky. The beautiful moon, just like me, was alone, unaccompanied by any stars. It stood out as it was the only thing that was in the sky and was shining brightly.
The night of the camp came into my head as I recalled those beautiful moments I spent with her. I knew if anyone would have felt how she treats me, they would be green with jealousy because she's mine. I sat by the road, all alone, hoping she would be right there with me, to hold my hands with hers, filling the empty spaces between my fingers.
I only wished for one thing at that moment, that is, to be with her. I didn't think I wanted anything else besides that at that time. Waiting for her message, which would take three days, seemed like forever. Thoughts of her filled as I recalled how my life was beautifully transformed as I introduced myself to her on my Friendster. She was my first best friend that I had and she still is, except that we are much closer than we were. She pulled my up when I was down, gave me hope to carry on living this life. And now, she IS my life, and I don't think I could live without her.
I never felt so lonely and empty before this. Even the sight of her cute smile or the sound of her laughter would cheer me up. I miss everything about her; her smile, her kisses, her hugs, the smell of her hair, there is nothing that I dislike in her. She was totally perfect to me, and I don't care what people say. I don't want to let her go. I maybe young and act immature but I know that my feelings for her are real. Sometimes I even think I don't deserve to be loved by someone so perfect.
And so, Friday has passed, and I'm still all alone. The song "Empty" made me sad and filled my eyes with tears. I don't know when I'll see her again, but I hope it wont have to be too long for me to wait.

I raised my head and looked at the moon again...
I smiled despite having tears in my eyes...
I knew she would be looking at the same moon...
Thinking about me...
And missing me...
As much as I miss her...
Ilysm

By Alistair 2009 :) <3

After so long...

Baby, after so long we're going through another separation..
Well, it ain't very long though, just 2 days.. But you know how 2 days feels, especially to those who are in love, just like us ;)

Well, my day sucks, I can only tell you what's going on, but I don't know how you're doing over there.. Well, after so long I played football, I played badly, but we were losing 3-0 and I scored the 1st goal for my team and we won 5-4..
your boyfriend is good, baby!!

I MISS YOU A LOT!!

We spent many days before Christmas, and I swear being with you the whole time made the ending of 2010 very beautiful to me...
We spent the night together after shopping...
I love cuddling with you..
you're the first I slept with, and I love that fact..
sometimes i just stay awake for you..
watch you sleep..
sometimes smile..
and when i kiss your cheeks, you kiss me back unconsciously.. that made me know that your love for me is literally every second of your life..
and i love to wake up with you in my arms.. It always makes my day..

This Christmas..
It was so beautiful..
I'm glad to get to spend one with you before you go..
you looked so happy.. Your dress was nice, you were pretty, but the joy in your face made you beautiful...
When i saw that guy, I just thought of you and how happy we are.. God can punish him..
You waited for me to eat, so I waited for you too when you got busy..
We'll, eating with you isn't the only thing I'll wait for..
A few more Christmases before I get to have another Christmas with you in my arms..
I was happy to see you cry when you saw your gift...
I love you so much and I know that you love me too..

Glad we spent the whole Christmas Night in each others' arms...

I was sad when I saw Klcc from a field at night.. I just missed you a lot..
We used to look at Klcc or at the moon, then i know we would be looking at the same thing thinking about each other..
But you can't see Klcc, and I cant see the moon...
I just hope you're safely in bed asleep..
Not missing me too much..
cant wait for you to come back baby....

I love you so much Edna Wajan!!!! <3

Sorry, cant be perfect. . .

Hey love...

Yesterday in the car I told you what kinda guy Livy would like..

A gentleman..
Who would always bring flowers..
Open doors for girls..
Polite and stuff...

And you said every girl dreams for a guy like that...
I know I'm not that kind of guy..

I don't buy you flowers.. I rarely buy you anything.. But I wanna give you everything I have in me.. I think I do..
I don't open doors for you, but I always try to give you a kiss before you open the door..
I ain't so polite and stuff.. But I wanna make you laugh and smile always..

I don't want to be your dream guy.. I want you to dream about me :)

Time.....

Time...

It's running out... She'd be gone in less than 2 years... and her departure from my side could be forever... And to make matters worst, we're spending less time than we did when we had school...

I miss those moments...

We could hug each other and still be very happy or sad when we leave each others side...
We could just hold on to each other and have all the time in the world...until its time for me to go..
We could lean on each other and not worry about the future of our secure relationship...

Wait..... I'm going backwards...
Now... its all different...

We barely talk....
Our meetings our too short...
You sleep early that we don't get to sms much...
You go out more with your friends..
Its been a long time since our last date...
You don't dare ask your mom's permission to go out with me...
its all going down...

BUT...

I'm still holding on believing the past will repeat itself....

What's the use of not believing in it and getting hurt in the end?

I'm no stranger to pain...

Just hope that love wouldn't be my resistance to keep on living...

Baby, if you leave me........

It's like living without a life........

I love you..

Storm...

I miss how happy I used to be.. Right now, it seems like only my friends are there for me.. Lately, no one sees the tears i shed.. No one.. The pain I'm feeling right now, is like falling ill.. I'm tormented, weak and lost.. I dont know the end of this illness.. You could cure it.. Or you could leave it unattended and let me die.. Either way, I'd rather have you ignore me n let me die, rather than you curing me and let me live crippled without you.. You talked to me before, with a voice as beautiful as you.. Now its all a stinging poison, and the things you say, are as ugly as you think you are.. You're suddenly a stranger, and people we love don't suddenly become strangers to us.. Our love used to be as clear as the sky.. Endless, and full of beautiful things happening in it.. Now its polluted, and there's no one to blame but us.. To save it, we have to play our parts.. Or we could just mind our own business and see it go down.. With the rest of the world remembering how great it was, and then suddenly gone... Bring it back....