After so long...

Baby, after so long we're going through another separation..
Well, it ain't very long though, just 2 days.. But you know how 2 days feels, especially to those who are in love, just like us ;)

Well, my day sucks, I can only tell you what's going on, but I don't know how you're doing over there.. Well, after so long I played football, I played badly, but we were losing 3-0 and I scored the 1st goal for my team and we won 5-4..
your boyfriend is good, baby!!

I MISS YOU A LOT!!

We spent many days before Christmas, and I swear being with you the whole time made the ending of 2010 very beautiful to me...
We spent the night together after shopping...
I love cuddling with you..
you're the first I slept with, and I love that fact..
sometimes i just stay awake for you..
watch you sleep..
sometimes smile..
and when i kiss your cheeks, you kiss me back unconsciously.. that made me know that your love for me is literally every second of your life..
and i love to wake up with you in my arms.. It always makes my day..

This Christmas..
It was so beautiful..
I'm glad to get to spend one with you before you go..
you looked so happy.. Your dress was nice, you were pretty, but the joy in your face made you beautiful...
When i saw that guy, I just thought of you and how happy we are.. God can punish him..
You waited for me to eat, so I waited for you too when you got busy..
We'll, eating with you isn't the only thing I'll wait for..
A few more Christmases before I get to have another Christmas with you in my arms..
I was happy to see you cry when you saw your gift...
I love you so much and I know that you love me too..

Glad we spent the whole Christmas Night in each others' arms...

I was sad when I saw Klcc from a field at night.. I just missed you a lot..
We used to look at Klcc or at the moon, then i know we would be looking at the same thing thinking about each other..
But you can't see Klcc, and I cant see the moon...
I just hope you're safely in bed asleep..
Not missing me too much..
cant wait for you to come back baby....

I love you so much Edna Wajan!!!! <3

Sorry, cant be perfect. . .

Hey love...

Yesterday in the car I told you what kinda guy Livy would like..

A gentleman..
Who would always bring flowers..
Open doors for girls..
Polite and stuff...

And you said every girl dreams for a guy like that...
I know I'm not that kind of guy..

I don't buy you flowers.. I rarely buy you anything.. But I wanna give you everything I have in me.. I think I do..
I don't open doors for you, but I always try to give you a kiss before you open the door..
I ain't so polite and stuff.. But I wanna make you laugh and smile always..

I don't want to be your dream guy.. I want you to dream about me :)

Time.....

Time...

It's running out... She'd be gone in less than 2 years... and her departure from my side could be forever... And to make matters worst, we're spending less time than we did when we had school...

I miss those moments...

We could hug each other and still be very happy or sad when we leave each others side...
We could just hold on to each other and have all the time in the world...until its time for me to go..
We could lean on each other and not worry about the future of our secure relationship...

Wait..... I'm going backwards...
Now... its all different...

We barely talk....
Our meetings our too short...
You sleep early that we don't get to sms much...
You go out more with your friends..
Its been a long time since our last date...
You don't dare ask your mom's permission to go out with me...
its all going down...

BUT...

I'm still holding on believing the past will repeat itself....

What's the use of not believing in it and getting hurt in the end?

I'm no stranger to pain...

Just hope that love wouldn't be my resistance to keep on living...

Baby, if you leave me........

It's like living without a life........

I love you..

Storm...

I miss how happy I used to be.. Right now, it seems like only my friends are there for me.. Lately, no one sees the tears i shed.. No one.. The pain I'm feeling right now, is like falling ill.. I'm tormented, weak and lost.. I dont know the end of this illness.. You could cure it.. Or you could leave it unattended and let me die.. Either way, I'd rather have you ignore me n let me die, rather than you curing me and let me live crippled without you.. You talked to me before, with a voice as beautiful as you.. Now its all a stinging poison, and the things you say, are as ugly as you think you are.. You're suddenly a stranger, and people we love don't suddenly become strangers to us.. Our love used to be as clear as the sky.. Endless, and full of beautiful things happening in it.. Now its polluted, and there's no one to blame but us.. To save it, we have to play our parts.. Or we could just mind our own business and see it go down.. With the rest of the world remembering how great it was, and then suddenly gone... Bring it back....

I never thought of it......

baby....

I love you...

To be honest, I never thought of leaving you...ever...

All I know that day was that we were drifting apart..

And I didn't want us to remain the same way....

I was so excited when you agreed to come to Mac's house..

You were in pavillion..

Everyone kept asking me about you..

When you said you were at Daph's house...

I was excited...

"Edna's coming later!!!"

Only to read your sms...

"not nice to leave people's house early"

I thought you put your friends before me...

Everyone asked me some more...

"Where's Edna?"

I got annoyed..

I said..
"Don't care la, she's not coming. Let her be.."

Lana could see how upset I became..

She wanted to talk to you..

She memorised your number and called...

You were not coming...

I was drinking wine..

Just thought if I slept early this day could go away.....

The day before was bad enough..

And I thought it could end today..

It didn't..

Livy talked about you..

She hated girls who hurt people who loved them...

Who wouldn't?

She said..

If she keeps hurting you.. Leave her..

She could see I was hurt..

But you don't do that baby.....

I hurt you more than you did....

I switched my phone off when you sms me....

Livy scolded me....

I shouldn't hurt people coz' I was a nice guy...

I called you...

I heard your voice...

"hi"

It was beautiful...

I started to remember how we talked in camp...

Your first kiss on my cheek...

Our first kiss in camp..

Your happy smile everytime you see me..

My feeling of comfort everytime you hugged me...

The way you laugh when I tickle you...

Your 'after-smile' smile....

I wanted more..

I couldn't bear to live without you...

I wanted you..

I broke down on the phone...

"I love you"

"I'm sorry"

I kept repeating....

I wanted you to know that I meant it....

We were Okay after that..

Glad we are till now.. :)

I never thought of leaving you...

Until now you're still afraid I leave you...

I know what I'll miss if I do...

I love you... <3